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The Breaking Point

It’s not a question of morality; it’s not a question of good or evil, it is one simple choice: survive or perish.


SkeletonDenial was slowly driving through systems in The Forge, looking for targets. She jumped into the next system.

This was not going to be a good day. It was a beehive, and she had no support.

SkeletonDenial looked at what she was up against. A Raven, a Thrasher, a Celestis, 2 Throaxes, a BlackBird, and a Sabre. It's not impossible. She made past worst camps before. SkeletonDenial searched for the nearest warp to object she was aligned to and engaged the warp drive. It’s amazing how much you can think about in just a few short seconds.


Warp. Warp. Warp.

She kept repeating the command in her head.

Warp. Warp. Warp.

She remembered the hull of her ship imploding; she felt the ensuing concussion wave.

Warp. Warp. Warp.

She thought she was still in her pod, but she couldn’t be sure. She wasn’t sure if she had been podded, she didn’t remember the pain of the last minute brain scan. She kept repeating the warp command in her head, trying at the same time to orientate herself. Just in-case the pod was still floating next to her Hawk’s wreckage.

Warp. Warp. Warp.

Why was she so damn cold? Where the hell were her camera drones? She could not see anything, there was nothing but blackness. It was so cold she was numb. She felt so very tired, she thought about giving up and just going to sleep. It would feel so good to just let go….

Warp. Warp. Warp.

She thought she heard the crackle of her pod voice communications coming to life. She started to feel pain. The numbness she felt was being replaced by pressure, like she was getting squished by a capital amour plate, while being stuck by pins at the same time.

Warp. Warp. Warp.

Did the cloning process malfunction? What she thought was the white noise from pod communication console was getting louder. Her heart did not feel right. It hurt. Her chest felt tight. SkeletonDenial? She thought she heard her name through the noise, faintly, she could not be sure.


The station manager at Mattere was pissed. Ships needed to dock, and he didn’t have enough hangers. Usually this wasn’t an issue. Usually pilots kept on schedule. Showed up on time, and left on time. The station also had some spare hangers for the unexpected and emergency arrival of pod pilots, but this wasn’t a typical war zone. Wars in Empire were getting more frequent, but Mattere was not a system on one of the more common travel pipes, and it definitely was not a major trade hub. Most of the pilots in this system were high-sec miners, a couple of mission runners, industrialists, that sort of thing. At any rate the station needed some critical supplies, and there was one hanger in particular that was causing a major backup.

“You better get done here Sir!” The station managers’ communication link relayed suddenly from the hanger operator.

“I’m already on my way!” he replied.

There was a Cerberus docked and was scheduled to leave over 90 minutes ago. To compound the issue, his station crew could not get into the hanger.
Just he was about to head down to the hanger to deal with the incompetence of his employees, he received an incoming transmission on his desk terminal.

It caught his attention because it was a transmission coming in encrypted, priority level 2.

“Oh God.” He thought, “Now what. This day just keeps getting better.”

He entered the security code and was slightly taken aback by the person he was about to talk to.

“How are your shipments through Mito going Mr. Cathedance?”

“Very well, actually, is there a problem?” he said cautiously. He hated this woman he was talking to. But it was a necessary evil for him, as well as profitable, and that was his main motivation for dealing with this pirate organization.

“Well, that depends on you. I have a small task I wish you to undertake, that is, to insure that your shipping lanes remain open through Mito.”

“YOU BITCH! …” Mr. Cathedance yelled trying to act like he wasn't afraid of the woman on the other end of the terminal.

“You told me I had two more weeks left in this agreement!”

“And, you will, as long as you complete a simple task for me. It will take you hardly no time whatsoever.”


“I believe you’ve been requested to go to hanger H5-3 on your station?”


“There is a female pilot on board the ship there, I want you to shoot her in the head......, now listen....., and this is important......., with a laser gun.”

“Are you insane? I can’t go around killing people? Even if I do run this place!”

“Mr. Cathedance”, the female voice from the terminal replied sternly, yet calmly, "I didn’t ask you to kill anybody. Just shoot her in the head. You can’t kill a pod pilot if it’s done correctly. You do want your shipments to go through still don’t you?”

“Fine.” Mr. Cathedence replied, “Fine.” after all, he thought to himself, a life of a pod pilot for a few more million in profit, 49 million actually, was a good deal.


The manger pushed his way past the crowd of onlookers, pilots, and station crew. It looked like the stations crew was finally able to get into the hanger, and onto the Cerberus that was supposed to undock.

“What in the HELL is going on HERE!” The manager barked, as he made his way past several medical personnel.

“What the…” the manger stopped short of finishing his sentence as he looked around the Heavy Assault Ship. There was blood splattered everywhere. There was blood on the walls, the floor, and the consoles. He went over to see what the medical personal were frantically doing when he saw a pod pilot laying on the deck floor of the ship.

She didn’t look too good. She had cuts on her arms, her neck, and her ribs. “Lock this station down! Nobody docks or undocks until we find the criminal who did this!”

“That won’t be necessary.” replied a medic, “It looks like a suicide attempt.”

“Is she dead?” the manager responding with a note of hopeful optimism in his voice. He didn’t care what her problem was. He needed to get the station docking services back onto schedule.

“I think she is going to pull through.”

The manager frowned. “What difference does it make? Shoot her in the head and let her get cloned wherever her contract is. I got a station to run!”

“She seemed a bit off today.” A man replied from behind him.

“Who the hell are you now?” asked the manager as he turned around to look at this person.

“Lysander. Lysander Kaldenn. We usually fly together. I was just congratulating her on her first 250 kills since becoming a Privateer. She acted like she had no idea what I was talking about. She brought up the CONCORD logs and then ordered everyone off the ship. She kept mumbling how she ‘had to stop her’ and that she 'wouldn't let her hurt anybody else anymore’. Then she just locked herself in on the ship.”

Someone in the crowd nearby could be heard saying, “SkeletonDenial? What kind of a name is that anyway?”


If your looking for SkeletonDenial, well, she isn’t here right now. She couldn’t handle the pressure. She’s scared. A weak… pathetic… lamb, who will break like crackers… and she needs me to take care of things. You know that.

STOP! Just stop. I don’t need you, I’ll handle it!

Let me take care of it for you, and then you won’t have to deal with it. You know it has to be done. I’ll protect you. I’m strong enough to take care of you, and me. You’re part of me. You do what I say.

It’s just that I get these voices in my head and their telling me to do things. Things I normally wouldn’t do. Bad, Horrible, Things! They are constantly talking and talking and talking. They are starting to scare me. Should I listen to them? I’m not suicidal, never have been. I’m not depressed, never have been. I’m normal. But, because of the voices in my head I can’t hear anything else. Dear GOD! Can’t you stop the voices in my head?

Who needs God when you got me?

My first podding of a Caracal pilot made me feel whole. Yet I felt like I lost something, a part of me. But it felt oohhh Sooooo GOOD!!! My second podding of an industrial pilot was even more satisfying. Even more pleasurable are the destruction warships with thousands of innocent souls onboard.

But it’s ok, I feel bad afterwards…


I have cut myself time and time again and poured my own blood on this ship to reveal the thousands that have died by the use of this weapon.

I look at it logically. I tell myself the only thing I lost was security status. But really I am losing who I was. The worst was when I was in my pod, floating in space, barely conscious; listening to the voice of what I thought was my one true and only love, Anika. I couldn’t hear the voices anymore. It had gotten worse. I know I should have gotten help but I’ve gone too far.

I told her not to cry, I told her I was the reason she didn’t die. Not yet at least. I knew I was the one, who hurt her, and she didn’t deserve it, but she must have known this was coming.

What will happen to me when she leaves? I think she killed me…

…but I think I killed her.

And though I have killed my only one true love, she will remain with me forever.


“Let someone else deal with her.” the station manager said angrily.

The station manager turned and looked at the pod pilot by his feet, and ordered the medics to back away. He took his laser pistol out of his holster that was strapped to the side of his leg, pointed it towards SkeletonDenial’s head, and fired, severing the top of her cranium right down the middle.


Piracy. There are those who are drawn to it because of the stories of adventure, fame, and fortune. Some use it to rebel against the controlling authorities. Some are just born that way. Others are made that way by society…

"Nanite Convulsive Therapy", they called it. They said it would fix her. She was arrested after her ship got destroyed by Concord and she received a permanent mark on her record for initiating aggression in high-sec space against a State employee. “I don’t know what she’s capable of…” SkeletonDenial told the psychotherapist, “… but you need to lock me up, it would be for the best.”
So, there she lay, restrained on the table with 400 nanite unit factories being placed into her.


I feel warm on my left side as the manifestation begins, encoding the nanite swarm through a projected machine, giving life to them as a structured emission of coherent microwaves.


The nanite swarm being administered from the factories let her rest briefly while the mind clone laid down the last few reflexive routines in the nanite swarm’s immaterial processing core.

The doctors push the soft switches; the manifestation responds, reaching up with tiny microwave fingers tempting to pull the knowledge from her head, re-arranging her thoughts. The molbydium tubes were placed into her head at about the temples, the front and back of one side of her head so the nanites would only work in just the right side of her brain.

The doctors, as she preferred to think of them, would ask her questions. There were questions about her childhood. Questions about how she saw herself. A doctor would ask questions about the incident in Kisago. They would ask questions about Anika, whom she would only refer to as Cryptic Myst. After each question a doctor would push one of the soft switches, depending on the answer she gave. They would ask the same questions over and over. If her questions displeased them, other soft switches would be pressed.

Sometimes the nanites going through her brain caused seizures so powerful that she could hear her own bones snap; first her left leg, then her left arm. The Cortex Dump, a new but not entirely unheard of procedure was not the cause such a violent reaction; it was use the illegal use of the nanite therapy to do it. It wasn’t fully approved by the State yet. Technically it was possible, socially it was repugnant, but still insanely illegal.

The terror she felt was not physical suffering of her treatment, it was the strikes to her core personality, and it was terrifying for that reason. It felt like she was getting hit in the head with a hammer. She began to feel dazed, confused, and disoriented. Her thoughts became uncontrollably disjointed. Her mind seemed to break into random splinters; shredded apart in a broad and deep dispersal pattern, all those deep structures of her mind being ripped, ripped out. Deleting and randomly rewriting all of the secret thoughts at the heart of her, attempting to remove her true sentience.

She started to forget about her problems after a while. It was as if she was in a grey limbo. They could suspend her, but she would not let them kill her.

Two days later after the concussion wore off, Lynnea wished Anika would take over, and Anika did.


“How are you feeling, today SkeletonDenial?”

“Another good day!” Anika replied.

“Excellent. Today we are releasing you to a private corporation, Excav Conglomerate. You have made much progress and we feel you are ready to move on. I must say you are one of our favorite patients, a model of success.

Your new role will be mining security. The CEO has agreed to continue to monitor your progress and send us periodic reports, and I will be providing him with your medical file.” Anikia read part of the corporation description:

“Non-Aggressive Corporation”

“This is a non aggressive corporation with views to make a surplus through the cooperation between others. The only conflict allowed in this corp is through means of aggression made towards the corporation only. An example would be a player of another corporation attacking a player of this corporation.”


See Lynnea? Everything is fine, just like I promised. Were going to a low-sec system, the State will no longer be a concern for us. I won’t let them hurt you anymore.

***Declassified Medical Report for SkeletonDenial File #0849

Skeleton Denial has been diagnosed with two personalities - SkeletonDenial and Cryptic Myst. The "split personality" is part of the diagnosis of her condition of "schizophrenia with involuntary narcissistic rage".

We still do not know the center cause for this. It might be caused by bad parenting, and lack of moral fibre. The straight answer is that we still don't fully understand the causes of her condition. We do know that there is a genetic component, and that there are some poorly-understood environmental and biological triggers.

She is to be considered unstable and violent, and could go "wild" without any warning.

This condition is treatable, provided she remains close to her home base with continued medication, therapy, and close contact with her chain of command. Indeed, hope in a recovery is part of the treatment.

There have been two major groups of symptoms displayed by SkeletonDenial; positive/passive and negative/active.

Documented Behavior for SkeletonDenial is as follows: Hallucinations (she sometimes see or smell things that are not there, or she may hear voices telling her what to do, or commenting on her actions) Disorganized thoughts (her speech jumps irrationally from one topic to another, or she may create new words) Disorganized behaviors (wearing multiple layers of clothes, shouting inappropriately in local).

On the other side of things, negative/passive symptoms she has displayed include: a withdrawal/loss of motivation loss of feeling speaking much less frequently, and what is said may be repetitious or vague and flat presentation (unchanged facial expressions, reduced body language and decreased spontaneous movements).

February 106: SWA Medical Team Log Entry

SkeletonDenial has showed a great deal of improvement while working towards graduation here at the Caldari State War Academy. We will be releasing her to the care of Skycaxgfnp, CEO of kl;ierh9 8289 89 corpot h her and keep her busy with jsjfjcv d [ 999 we feel this will no longer be an isszzz7ue.

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Log file Corrupted.